Yes, this describes how my brain felt yesterday...scrambled. I don't know what overcame me yesterday but i've never felt so overwhelmed in my life. When I'm use to people acting a certain way and they don't I just sort of drive myself crazy..because I get nervous when I notice that people I'm close to are suddenly different.
The main person who I like didn't really talk to me. I don't want to come across as needy--however, I just would like to know If I did something to upset them.. My goodness, I hate having to text people and such..lines of communication are so messed up these days.
THEN
NOW
It's just hard to know how to feel and to know how to go about things.. My mother read me her journal last night, and we just laid in my room on my bed talking.. I was crying as I was reading her journal..because everything I read from her journal looked like my thoughts out on paper. She told me, "you think i havent been there, Emily?" and that really hit me..and I was so happy to have her as my mom..because I truly feel like I was placed in her care because she's walked the road i've walked. and I told her, "Heavenly father knew that I needed you, and he knew that we needed to be each others best friends.." And our eyes both got watery and we just laid there hugging, mother and daughter. I was thinking..wow--my earthly mother is awesome, it'll be so nice to meet my heavenly mother too someday.
I'm so grateful to be able to live with, and to have a close relationship with my parents..it's great. And it truly makes a difference.
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